Rollercoaster of Emotions

The saying goes ... no-one can make you feel a certain way unless you let them. Yeah well, nice psychology but we humans aren't black and white are we.

Just as someone can't force you to feel a certain way, I don't believe you can force yourself to feel or not feel something other than you do (or don't), sheesh what a messed up sentence.

Different people have different effects on us. Some have a talent for making me feel certain ways. It doesn't mean my head thinks they're right but how we feel emotionally sometimes has very little to do with what we actually think.

I'm waffling.

Probably this has come up today because I've gone from feeling ready to stab someone in the eye with a spork earlier this morning, to positively glowing a little after that.

One person in my life makes me feel ...

... lazy
... worthless
... dependent
... frustrated
... loved - with conditions
... fat
... childish
... stupid
... bored
... selfish
... extravagant
... undervalued

Another makes me feel ...

... loved
... unappreciated
... appreciated
... disprespected
... respected
... soft-hearted

Yet another makes me feel ...

... occasionally loved
... a matryr
... a slave
... unappreciated
... taken for granted
... furious
... worried
... hurt

And last but not least there is someone who makes me feel ...

... loved
... adored
... beautiful
... intelligent
... interesting
... understood
... kind
... sweet
... passionate
... sexy
... selfless
... giving
... patient
... dependable
... trusted

Now I wonder why there's one in particular that I want to spend my time with.

I miss my heart.